Monday, 2 January 2017

A New Beginning?

Usually I'm not someone who gets all too excited about the approach of a new year. I mean, when you think about it, it's just another day... right? I've always been a firm believer that if you don't like where you are in life, or simply want to change your goals and ambitions, you don't need to wait for January 1st. We all work on different time scales, and I think it's important to respect that whilst it may seem like those around you are excited and planning things already for the year ahead, that doesn't at all mean that you have to too. Regardless, I have to say that this is probably the first time since the age of three that I've been able to face the start of a new year completely free, free as though it is a new beginning. In the past I've always been in the middle of an academic year which made the whole 'fresh start new start' thing feel a bit peculiar. To those that work too, I'm sure you must feel the same. Our lives continue on as they did before, so what makes January 1st so life defining? What makes January 1st the day that we ought to work up new goals and recognise our aspirations and dreams? What makes January 1st the 'new'... the start of something more? I don't quite know, but I do think that this year marks the first time I truly understand what any of it means. Whilst it's scary to head into 2017 with no plans set in stone or a schedule to run back to after the holiday break is over, I also feel quite liberated and excited at the same time. What I do and how I go about things is my decision and up to me this time (pretty intimidating I have to say!). I do hope to make the most out of this opportunity though as I don't know if I'll be in a similar position this time next year. 

Some goals - or I rather like to term 'ideals' - I've laid out for the year ahead include:
- Build my physical strength and stamina, hopefully losing some weight during the process!
- Journal everyday, and truly invest time in optimising the rest of my time. In order to support this new habit, I will be Blogging a lot more about planning, journaling, my bullet journal, how to's and more, so do be sure to stick around if that's your thing! (You can follow the blog here) *ps. I also aim improve my general typography and watercolour skills after looking in detail at the spread above... yikes!!! haha
- Move into a career that I'm happy in. Something which makes me feel fulfilled yet eager for more.
- Record more memories.
- Get back into book reviews. As I'm sure you can imagine, seventy hours a week of academic reading leaves little room for leisure time or much opportunity to truly appreciate the magic that is the escapism of a book. I'm not going to pressure myself into reading a set number of books by certain deadlines, but I will definitely aim to read much more regularly throughout 2017 and I hope to share my thoughts on some of those reads with you!

Overall, I feel excited at the unknown, but extremely anxious at the idea that there is no 'known' all at the same time. I usually feel really down around the New Year, so it's odd not to feel that way this year, a way that until now I had always perceived as a normality. If you do feel that way though, just know that it's ok and that whilst it may feel as though you're being left behind, or that everyone else seems to be two steps ahead of you - it's fine. We all work on different time scales, and just because the calendar projects that you should be in the emotional state to approach this 'new beginning' with open arms, it does not make you abnormal if you aren't feeling that way. A lot of the time there's so much pressure laid upon us that if we don't know what are goals and motivations are for the year ahead on January 1st, then we've just lost our chance. Not true. A day will come where your own 'new beginning' will show itself, and it'll be at a time and stage in your life that's right for you, and not for everyone in general. 

Regardless, I wish you all the happiest, most peaceful year yet, and that you smile at least once a day everyday.
- Han. 

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