Tuesday, 30 July 2019

Hello, it's me.

So I'm back, with one of the most original post titles may I say (eh). I really can't tell you how strange this feels, nor how long I've been wanting to do this but hey ho, it's 2019 and here we are.

I suppose I should probably start with what happened and why you simply haven't seen or heard from me in quite a while. There were a range of factors that contributed to my stopping blogging, but the main one would have to be my health. Whilst I don't have the worst health in the world, it certainly isn't where I would like it to be a lot of the time. I had quite a few life-outlook-altering diagnoses towards the end of 2015 and I didn't feel able to dedicate the time needed to learning about and coming to terms with those things at the time, so as you can imagine, that didn't play well on my mental health in the long run. As my physical health became more problematic, I felt more limited and didn't feel well enough to do the things I wanted to do. However, once my physical health decided to pick up a little, it left my mental health behind. I decided at that point that if I didn't take the time needed to work on and mend myself, then it simply wouldn't happen.

A part of that 'halt and recovery' period of my life meant that I needed to focus solely on me: my mental health, my physical health and general wellbeing, which at the time didn't include blogging. I wasn't able to take the photographs I wanted due to pain, and thus my negative feelings towards my blog, content and everything intertwined thrived in a manner that eventually proved detrimental to my perceptions of self-worth. I loved blogging, and until that point it had brought me nothing but joy, but at that point I just didn't feel in a position where I felt well enough in myself to write about myself and my life online so it just didn't make any sense to continue at the time.

On a more positive note, I'm pleased to say that that 'halt and recovery' period really facilitated that much-needed opportunity to explore who I was and what I wanted from life, and as a result I've been a much happier, fulfilled person for quite the stretch now (yay!). So why am I back now you ask? Because I want to be - and it feels great to say that. At current, everything I am doing in life is something I want to be doing and I couldn't be happier.

Because it's been so long, I figured it would be a fun idea to update you on a few things that have happened since I last spoke to you and to give a better impression of who and where I am in life right now:

1. I moved. This is no doubt one of the most life-influencing moments of the past few years as I moved from an area I knew like the back of my hand to what seemed like a totally different world. It was at this point in 2017 where I truly questioned what it was that I wanted and as a result my quality of life is just so much better. I've always loved fresh starts and this provided the biggest opportunity for just that.

2. I passed my driving test and bought a car. This is something that I've been longing for so so long now. I wear a beaming smile across my face every time I just think about it or see my car in the drive and I can't see that diminishing any time soon. It took a long while, but once I moved it became clear that it was something I needed to start working towards as everything is far more rural and spread out. Where I could rely on trains in the past, I no longer could so I feel that that was the final push to get me behind the wheel. Anyway, I passed (first time n' all!) and made my first true 'adult' purchase and bought myself a car. The ability to go here there and everywhere whenever I would like is so empowering... I only wish I'd taken the plunge much sooner!

3. I have rabbits now. Well, technically they're my mums, but we have bun buns now! Their names are Skippy and Thumper and they're gorgeous.

4. I finally took the plunge and started working towards a Bachelor of Science in Psychology, finishing the first year with a 1st in September 2018. Whilst I'm currently taking a bit of a break, I do hope to pick up those studies once again come September 2019.

5. I just attained my Postgraduate Certificate in Education (Outstanding, may I add) and I am totally in love with what I'm doing. I knew I'd enjoy the world of education before applying, but now that I've been working towards this for a year now, my love for teaching has only blossomed. I can only thank 2018 me for being brave and taking the plunge to totally change direction and career paths. It's been difficult, it's been tough, but it's been worth it. So worth it.

I'm so happy to be back and writing this and I'm trying not to listen to that 'nobody even cares what you have to say' voice in my head because this is a new me baby and the new Hannah wants to do more of what makes her happy! If you'd like to keep updated then be sure to follow my blog on Bloglovin here. You can also find me on: Twitter & Instagram.

- Hannah x



Macey @ Brine & Books said...

So thrilled your back! Sometimes taking a break is one of the best things we can do for ourselves. I'm so happy to hear you're feeling more fulfilled. Can't wait to follow along xxxx


Tabitha Courtney said...

i have only just discovered your blog but i am so happy you are back! i can't wait to read all your new blog posts! i am so envious of you, i really want some bunnies but my mum won't allow it at the moment :( you'll have to post lots of pictures of them, to fuel my need hehe! congratulations on finishing your first year with a first and getting an outstanding! you must be feeling so proud! can't wait to see your future content petal!

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Lilly said...

yay! SO pleased to see you're back. I've missed you and your blog. I look forward to seeing what you have to bring xx

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